Does your family stands by you?

Its been awhile since I felt this shitty! Cried the past few hours and now my eyes are swollen..
Was supposed to go pray pray my grandma and dinner at grandpa’s hse but I skipped both.. haven’t been feeling that well also, haven’t ate anything since yesterday night.. it seems that whatever goes in comes back out from the same place..

They say home and family is where you turn to when something happens and that they’ll always be there for you..I guess whoever said that must have a very closely knitted happy family.. because I never felt this way before..

Anyway I’m feeling very shitty and I can’t seem to stop crying.. I don’t know what’s happening… I only know that I need to move out of this goddamn place as soon as I can afford a place of my own… anyway my stuff are being thrown out of someone else’s room.. btw my room and wardrobe doesn’t contain only my stuff, hence some of my stuff were in another room that was shared..

Just received a call, ‘I’m worried abt your health and your job.. why do u keep feeling unwell’more like if I lose my job, I won’t contribute a single cent for the household..like I said..even if I die I will drag myself to work! Like I can control when I have cramps and when I start vomiting non-stop! You think I want to take MC! Pls.. ur primary concern was Never my health! I am only saying such things because it was proven! He woke me up just to reprimand me for taking MC and not going to work and this is a new job and I am on probation! I was having very bad cramps, to the extend that I can’t get out of bed.. he expected me to work even when I’m dying in bed in pain..

Your precious other one hasn’t been paying a single dirty cent, she just fucking spends all her fucking money on branded stuff.. take for example, Gucci keychain that cost 200+ near 300, million and one tiffany and co stuff, some silly leather wrist accessories that cost few hundred, uncountable branded bags.. if I were to name all… I bet I cld just go on forever! School fees was just excuses!

Seriously, don’t worry, no matter what I will slog my ass off, so that I will have money to shut everyone’s mouth! Since in this fucked up place, it’s nothing but money! So stop asking me if I’m really so hard up for money.. I am!

And I realised as I grow older, I don’t have much friends left..really ppl come at 1st and they eventually leave at different points of your left..and eventually you’ll be all alone..

Happy Things :p

Little things happened today that made my day!

1. Colleague that seldom speaks to anyone chatted with me today and I mean stuff outside of work and that made my day! Because he used to be quite hostile to me when I initially joined the coy. XD

2. Yummy home made apple juice by my student’s mum! It was yummilicious! And she taught me how to make! So gng try it! Heh!!

3. Sec 1 kid was so sensible that he was worried that I’d increase my tuition fee next year and it will become a burden to his parents.. Oh btw I’m not increasing it :p

4. FON ‘Secret Admirer’ offered to pick me from tuition because I wasn’t feeling well.. feeling ‘loved’ <3

Happy day so far! otw home, hope no one spoils my day…

meetings

are a waste of time, especially when your presence is not required…

五年之约

五年之约真的到了吗？

他报梦说过，五年后他会回来把她给带走。真的是他们的五年之约吗？还是巧合？

他走的那天是五年前的15／1，而她也在今天凌晨时分也跟着去了。

这可能对她来说是个解脱，毕竟她已经被折磨了12年。亲爱的婆婆，您好好上路吧…

Terima Kasih

Recently, there were many sad things happening, even the drama serial i was watching ended sadly..=/ i do not like shows that have a sad ending! Can’t they just let people have a happy ending since life is already so tough?

 

Anyway, my maternal side of the family’s long time maid of 12 year was just diagnosed with liver cancer. It was a sad moment for everyone in the family. It came as a shock to everyone when we were informed that she was diagnosed with cancer as she was already been treated like part of the family. I don’t understand how someone like her could be so ill-fated (this is the right word to use, many things happened to her over the years..=/). Thank you Wasni for all these years, taking care of my grandpa till he was gone and my grandma with Alzheimer. Thank you.

 

Sneaked out of office to send her off this morning, she was so weak and feet so swollen, my heart sank when I saw her. I didn’t cry, I can’t cos i sneaked out to ‘buy coffee’ for 45 minutes. I hope that she will take good care of herself when she is back in Indonesia, eat well and spend her remaining day doing what she wants and enjoy, after-all she spent 12 years away from her family.

 

Enough of the sad stuff, I just wish her well.

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Since no one knows what’s going to happen tomorrow (other than going to work, if it’s a weekend), I’ll try to jot down as often as possible the simple thing that happened in a day that I’m grateful for or made me happy. Let’s see how long I can keep this going.

What happened today that made your day?

 

1. Thankful that my lunch khakis at the new workplace accommodated to have a quicky lunch at the canteen because I had a meeting at 2pm (which I only found out was changed to 2.30pm after I came back from lunch)

2. My ex-’neighbour’ gossiped to me about something that happened at my old workplace, it was a shocking piece of news, someone that shouldn’t be pregnant was pregnant!! She took over my place of being a ‘Satellite Dish’ being able to obtain such news. LOL~ Yes i thrive on gossips~ hahahahahah~~

3. Ended work on-time on the 1st workday of the year! No Over Time, Leave On Time! MORE leaving On Time to come~~~

4. Met JC friend at the void deck when I was walking back from the MRT Station because he was locked out of the house (left his keys). Haven’t seen him for very long, it was a good 10mins catch-up.

 

 

Anything happy happened to you today?

how are you?

I know its just a simple Hi, Hello or How are you?

I know I didn’t make the effort. I don’t have time – I know its an excuse. But if I don’t do it, can’t you do it? Instead of reprimand me for not checking on you.

Do you know how busy I am..everyone only thinks that the younger one needs to work.. Hello! I work freaking 7 days a week! And its almost full hours on weekends as well..

Doesn’t matter… You’ll only say I took it upon myself..

meet up with the Ks and the C

great catching up with my JC mates yesterday (26 Sep 11).

Meet up with K.H at Habour Front and K.T met us on the train at Dhoby Ghaut. It was quite stupid because K.H and I alighted from the train to look for K.T, cos he said that he can’t get to the platform in time to board our train. But when we went on the platform we saw him there, so three of us jumped back onto the train.. quite dumb but i thought it was funny.

The two guys were talking SO LOUDLY on the train! i was so embarrassed! We took the train to Kovan to get to K.H’s house. Oh! the meetup was initiated by K.H, according to him, K.T wants to see his new dogs, so might as well call for a meet up with C and Me. Apparently K.H wanted to ask YM along but i think it will be so awkward for K.T if YM was there, luckily YM was not invited eventually, i’ll be awkward too.. anyways long story~ btw C was late so the guys and i went to get take away back to his balcony to eat..

Random: HIS ROOM IS DAMN BIG!*envious* oh oh oh!! and his bulldog looks like a pig! it’s super cute!!!! *awww* i dun like the other one erm..too pretty~ hahah!

anyways K.T is going to proposed to his girlfriend (lucky bitch) next month!! so exciting and he’ve gotten his ring and the house should be ready to collect in 2014!!gd luck!~ ^^v

anyways everyone is doing well, C says that she’ll get married before 2015 and K.H is attached for 1 month.. happy for them.. seems like everyone is happily in love <3<3<3

I hope for more of such mini meet ups with them.. actually i really do loved and enjoyed my JC life. So much fun, laughter and silly things we do together~

start of a bad day

I can simply foresee that today is going to be a bad day!

It started off early in the morning from the moment I went to wash up.. Guess what I found..someone’s dirty clothes on my face towel. Yesterday it was her used dental floss on the sink! Wth! I totally DO NOT welcome her to stay at my place..these are just some things abt her that irritates me..there’s more!

Secondly, lift in office! 1st I got stepped on the feet by this guy while he keeps moving backwards without checking..nevermind..the lift is crowded..no problem..I don’t blame him..

Next, this is the one I want to bitch about! This fucking boastful bitch in her 50s I suppose, working at the same place as me, standing next to me in the lift! Fuck! 1. Lift is crowded, she must stand sideways with her right elbow leaning on the horizontal pole in the lift with her left hip tilted up! Waste space! KNN! She must freaking hell talk non stop boast about eating at MBS spending $300 on a meal.. *rolls eyes* swing her blardy bag, hit me!nevermind, she swing again and hit me attempting to crush me for the 2nd time with her disgusting black bag! I pushed the bag away and said excuse me..she looked at me, ignored and swung it for the third time at me..blardy bitch!

Such a bitch! Make sure she don’t bite her tongue when eating mooncakes tonight and the tongue swell up!! Argh!

Totally spoil my morning and part of my day!

What a way to start a morning! Irritated!

enough or endure?

Enough is enough?

Or

What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger?

i can’t sleep!

I can’t slp! I need something to knock me out!

Alcohol doesn’t work..

Neither does barging into my room loudly works..its getting fustrating and irritating..

Anyone knows where to get slping pills? The doc jus refuse to prescribe to me:(