Its been awhile since I felt this shitty! Cried the past few hours and now my eyes are swollen..
Was supposed to go pray pray my grandma and dinner at grandpa’s hse but I skipped both.. haven’t been feeling that well also, haven’t ate anything since yesterday night.. it seems that whatever goes in comes back out from the same place.. 
They say home and family is where you turn to when something happens and that they’ll always be there for you..I guess whoever said that must have a very closely knitted happy family.. because I never felt this way before..
Anyway I’m feeling very shitty and I can’t seem to stop crying.. I don’t know what’s happening… I only know that I need to move out of this goddamn place as soon as I can afford a place of my own… anyway my stuff are being thrown out of someone else’s room.. btw my room and wardrobe doesn’t contain only my stuff, hence some of my stuff were in another room that was shared..
Just received a call, ‘I’m worried abt your health and your job.. why do u keep feeling unwell’more like if I lose my job, I won’t contribute a single cent for the household..like I said..even if I die I will drag myself to work! Like I can control when I have cramps and when I start vomiting non-stop! You think I want to take MC! Pls.. ur primary concern was Never my health! I am only saying such things because it was proven! He woke me up just to reprimand me for taking MC and not going to work and this is a new job and I am on probation! I was having very bad cramps, to the extend that I can’t get out of bed.. he expected me to work even when I’m dying in bed in pain..
Your precious other one hasn’t been paying a single dirty cent, she just fucking spends all her fucking money on branded stuff.. take for example, Gucci keychain that cost 200+ near 300, million and one tiffany and co stuff, some silly leather wrist accessories that cost few hundred, uncountable branded bags.. if I were to name all… I bet I cld just go on forever! School fees was just excuses!
Seriously, don’t worry, no matter what I will slog my ass off, so that I will have money to shut everyone’s mouth! Since in this fucked up place, it’s nothing but money! So stop asking me if I’m really so hard up for money.. I am!
And I realised as I grow older, I don’t have much friends left..really ppl come at 1st and they eventually leave at different points of your left..and eventually you’ll be all alone..
